This morning I woke up tired, groggy and really upset. The past few nights I have had nightmares plying out my worst fears. One night it was a dream that I was failing life and wouldn't amount to anything, another night I lost all my friends and disowned by my family, and last night my dream was my boyfriend telling me to hit the road. I usually have bad dreams when the universe is trying to tell me something. But how can I trust in my faith when everything points to fear?
For some reason I was battling this morning just to pick myself up and move along with my day. I lost my job, struggling to start a business and feeling as if I am just crawling along through my life. What in the actual fudge! As much as I would like to say I had a successful fight, sadly I am human and my ego got the best to me. I melted into a puddle of tears on the concrete floor. I just sat there, unable to move, letting the tears fall from my eyes freely.
I haven't felt this low in a very long time, that feeling of being lost or stuck. Am I on the right path? What if I am not meant to help others? Should I delete my blog and forget about my dreams? All these feelings crept up and I lost control. I could feel the ugly ego shouting out, "You're not good enough...run!" But I didn't, I decided I needed to work through what I was feeling. Find out why and what I was going to do to get out of my own way.
After a little crying release session, I slowly picked myself off the floor. I just kept telling myself, have faith, keep going, trust. Starting pointing out the things that I was grateful for. I began to slowly feel better and realized something incredible as well. We all fall apart, we all at times feel as if the world is ending and that we should give up. But if we push through, fight the urge to throw in the bucket, we can rise to become something better than the current version of ourselves. This brings me to the magical world of Harry Potter.
It was just only last week that I got to go to both the HP world and Epcot parks. Thanks to my awesome parents, I lived the dream of going to Hogwarts. Harry Potter was a major part of my life. When I was a teenager I went through a tough time with bullying, being an outcast and having very few friends. My mother handed me the first two books of Harry Potter. Originally bought for my brothers, she realized that the magic with in those stories was way more up my alley.
When ever I would get down, feel low or feel as if I was battling the monster within, I would run to my shelf and start reading those stories. I instantly became a fan and was there every book release after that. J.K. Rowling gave us a world where we learned about friendship, love, loyalty and fighting for what we believe in, even if that meant standing alone. So when I walked into the park and saw Diagon Alley the emotions were high.
What is the correlation between these two stories? Me feeling having a bad week and my trip to HP world. When my mom brought me to HP world I was instantly reminded of all the things the story brought to life for me. I remembered what I was fighting for and who I was. I met new friends with the same things in common. I also remembered what the story means to me.
Harry Potter taught us that even though you fall apart, the world does not wait. You have to be strong and pick yourself up off the floor. Friends are one of the most important things one could have in this life. Family is irreplaceable and we should cherish the moments we have with them. Being different can mean you are meant for something bigger than yourself.
As fans we are the ones who keep that magical world alive. It is more than just a fantasy for us, it is a place of comfort. Hogwarts will always be our home. You can ask any HP fan, the story means something different and the same for all of us. It was our escape our adventures and our dreams. We fought along side Dumbledore's Army, we cried with Hermione, and we laughed with the Weasleys.
Being the heroine of your own story is hard. We are the ones that cry at night and smile in the morning. Calling on our friends to help us through the dark but also knowing that we must go by ourselves sometimes too. Life will always throw us challenges but if we make a story out of it the trials don't seem that hard.
We may lose hope, find times to be hard, curse, cry, and even get angry. But we do it, we still fight. Being the heroine of our own story means that we do not wait for someone to save us, we save ourselves. So don't get down on yourself if you have moments that you fall apart. Don't feel guilty if you feel less than heroic. You've got this. Do what I do and take things day by day. Enjoy the good times, cherish the moments, learn from the hard times and be grateful for all that you have.
What are the stories that keep you going? Do you have a book, movie or series that you can always find solace?
How do you fight to be the hero of your own story?
Let me know in the comments below! If you have any recommendations on books or movies I'd love to check them out!
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We as a society have grown accustomed to thinking that being a multi tasker is the ideal image of the perfect human. We glorify people for the amount of load they can carry and then we penalize others for focusing one task at a time. So when we get to a part in our lives that is less than busy or controlled, we feel stuck. Does any of this sound familiar?
I am one of those people who has struggled with perfectionism and multi tasking since puberty. don't get me wrong being able to multi task isn't always bad. Sometimes it can come in handy. It gets toxic when we try to control every little detail or get horribly upset when things don't go according to plan. This leads us to feeling lost, stuck or unsuccessful.
Another pressure we hold over our heads is the idea of being someone we're not. We are forced to figure out life questions younger and younger. Do you remember in high school when you had to pick a college and decided what you wanted to do for the rest of your life. Did you have any clue what you really wanted at 16-17yrs old? I sure didn't and let me tell you, I am not nearly the same person I was back then. I have grown, learned from my experiences and blossomed into the person I am today. It took a long time to get here and looking back I would have never guessed this life when I was a teenager.
So what we get when we are pressured into decisions, jobs, responsibilities is the loss of our spark. We are groomed to follow the work week only to get to our weekend. We as a society have grown into thinking that we should only have two days to take care of our needs. This has always baffled me, and I am a part of it just as much as the next person. The difference, I am choosing to find better ways to live.
Do you feel tired, drained out, maybe even a case of the blues? Do you strive for success but feel lack of energy in the development of your dream? You're not tired, you're burnt out. You are un-motivated from everything that is stagnate around you. We feel sad, lazy and extremely tired when our brains aren't stimulated. It's time to find what inspires you to be better. What motivates you to push through the muck?
Some of the things that help me feel motivated or inspired:
I first came to magic...
I first came to magic when I was just a teenager. I was struggling with who I was, wanted to be and where I was growing up. I was constantly bullied for being different, taunted and teased because my family background. I wanted desperately to find a way out. At the time my mother introduced me to the Harry Potter series, ( it was 1-3 at the time). I can remember feeling such a connection with Harry. The outcast who finds out they are so much more than what they were led to believe. It was Harry Potter which struck a cord with me and my fantasy of magic and witchcraft. But it wasn't until a few years later that I started to really study the practice.
Flash forward to 18, I knew I really wanted to learn more about magic and connecting to the powers inside. I nervously walked the Metaphysics aisle at the book store and found the first book that caught my attention. I wish I could remember the actually title, but I do remember how excited I was when I got back to my apartment and opened the first chapter. My love and passion for magic has grown from that moment. One of the beauties of magic is that it is ever growing, ever evolving.
Magic is more than Metaphysics, Harry Potter and casting spells. Magic is working with the universal energy and moving it through in our manifestations. We can use this force positively, we can manifest our desires with this energy. Magic is the art of creating with energy, mind, heart and movement. When you pray you are creating magic. When you meditate, ask the universe to get you that job, these are all ways that you are creating magic. Magic is also in the miracles you see around you, if you just open your eyes to see them.
What does it mean to live magically?
What does it mean to live magically? How does one believe in magic when everything around them falls short of tragic? Living magically is more than seeing fairies or speaking with animals. Magic is all around us, flowing in and out of space and time. Magic is such a wonderful thing to discover and when we do there is no limit.
When we live magically we live in confidence and belief in ourselves. Being able to push through the storm and come out stronger on the other side. To see the light even in the most darkest of situations. Living magically means finding moments to indulge, cherish and thrive. Seeing miracles in everyday life.
Living magically means being the best version of yourself every day. knowing that there is both light and dark in this world and we must honor both sides. It means trusting your intuition and having faith in something more than just your self.
Easy ways to live magically
There are many ways to start living a more magical life. From daily rituals to eating healthier meals, you can start right now with small changes. I created Live a more magical life guide to help get you on the right track. Download it for free by signing up to my newsletter. In this guide you'll receive tips on meditation, exercises to jumpstart your passions, and gratitude practice.
Before signing off I wanted to leave you with some easy ways to start living a magical life, right now:
"Magic only comes to those who believe in it."
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