Regardless of the heat I got to finish October with some pretty spectacular events.. I got to go to Chihuly in the garden, an apple festival, and a book signing. The month was a great start to a new direction for me. A ton of things started to come up for me. Things that I needed to heal, refocus and even decide upon.
I have made a few vows to myself and I want to build upon the ashes that I arise from. Someone once said; "The phoenix is born from the ashes of his past. Each time learning from his mistakes and becoming more powerful each time."
The festival was super cute. Had tons of local flair. I got to try apple cider doughnuts for the the first time. I am pretty obsessed with those tiny treats. i'm happy they aren't readily available everywhere. Most of the time we were there we were just being silly and having a good time taking in the sights.
On the way home we stopped at an orchard general store. It was filled with apple products, ciders, pumpkins and dozens of different types of apples. It was hard not to go extremely wild in there. Something I'm super grateful we both were able to reign each other in from going overboard. We picked out our pumpkins, snagged a couple of pecks of apples and some cider. The day was closed out with eating one of the best tomatoes I have ever had, like an apple.
Check out The Awakened Moon's video of our day:
After the apple festival I flew down to Fort Lauderdale to visit my parents. I also got to see one of my favorite motivational speakers while I was down there. Her blog and books have been a big part of my growth and spiritual development.
Gabby's books are one of the main catapults in getting back to loving myself unconditionally while forgiving my co dependency to my insecurities. It was amazing to not only get to meet her but to hear her speak of so many things I had been going through since the break up.
Seeing my parents and getting to spend some time by the ocean made the trip that much more awesome. By the time I got back I could feel the slow little spark begin to fire up again.
I am not sure the precise moment or even if there was one. I just know that one morning I woke up and felt completely different. It was as if I finally gained that spark to lite. I feel as if I was done with the past, I burst into flames and now I am born again. Ready to spread my wings as a new Phoenix and begin anew.
I've started to notice small changes here and there. Starting with my weight and then seeing a difference in my face. I feel lighter too. I feel as if I am completely liberated. As if a mighty burden was lifted off my shoulders. Things have started to become clearer to me. I know that we may have bad moments, days. or even months. This doesn't mean we have bad lives. I look around me and see how much I really have to be grateful for. I am starting to see the meaning behind, loving myself before someone can love me.
i am excited to start November with great enthusiasm. We finally started to feel a chill in the breeze and I can't help but to feel the winds carrying messages on them for me. Something's coming, I feel something big. Changes have always scared me but I have always worked my way through them. I refuse to let my anxiety or fears take control of me. It may be a struggle, I may fight, but I know I will get through.
Can't wait to share some of my November adventures loves!