Here I am sitting in my new place, movie playing in the background and loving this lazy Sunday. We are on the eve of October and I couldn't be more excited. Even through the last bit of heat from the summer you can start to feel a breeze coming through the trees. The smells of fall begin to fill the air and our beloved Pumpkin Spice flavors and scents start to stock the shelves.
Fall is my absolute favorite season of the year. I love the colors, outfits, scents, flavors, and the energy that stirs our hearts. Fall always seemed to be the time of the year where I feel change is coming. A chance to start anew and prepare for the coming year. It is a time for planning, resting, and one of the best times of year for self love. I always feel super charged during the months of October through December. (I'm a winter baby so I love the colder months..)
The past couple of months have been somewhat tough on my spirit, I got into a major rut and felt stuck in the mud so deep that I couldn't see the end. I learned a few things during this period. I learned that I can call upon help when I need, I have an amazing support team, I am much stronger than I give myself credit for and there are possibilities in almost every situation. While no one dreams of getting dumped or loosing a job, and yes while these situations are extremely stressful, we almost always come out alright in the end.
Friday morning I woke up and realized how happy I was to be in my place. I feel really good in my new little apartment. It is slowly coming together and I can see my self excited to be home. There have been a few times in the past week or so where I randomly giggled out loud. Having an overwhelming sense of happiness. I follow these random outbursts with an affirmation, "I'm gonna be okay and I'm gonna be just fine."
I have also begun to look at the past few months from more of an outside perspective. Looking back on the situations with a different pair of eyes and being able to see things as they really were. This has helped me in the healing process and I only wish I could have figured this out sooner. Wow I mean Wow! Now being able to look at a situation objectively doesn't mean it doesn't hurt, Just the opposite. It's being able to honor those feelings, see what needs to be seen and working through it. Seeing certain things as blessings and new open windows.
This is another reason why I love fall, it feels like the start of a new journey. It is filled with hopeful energy. it is a time we snuggled in comfy sweaters, read long books, take walks in the city, and check out the colors on a country road.
Fall also helps us to reflect and see how far we have come. It is a great time to re-vist your journals, old blogs, letters or at old photos. Take a look at all you have accomplished in the past few years. See how strong you have become. Try to remember the situation and see what would have happened if you choose a different path. See if you have any recurring mistakes or characteristics that you can learn from. It's eye opening to go back and see your younger self. I usually reflect on these things and then write my younger self a letter in my current journal.
All of my decisions and experiences have led me to where I am now. While I don't regret the choices I have made, I do wish that I sometimes would have reacted better. But here I am, at peace with were I am and allowing for the universe to guide me to my next journey.
"Magic only comes to those who believe in it."
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