Hi guys!!! Ok that song is about England, but it fits perfectly with my trip to Colorado. If you've never heard the song I highly suggest giving it a listen. It is called Song of Exile. I was listening to it while I wrote this blog.
If you follow me on Instagram you've probably noticed I was in Colorado for a wedding. How do I put into words the sheer beauty that is this place I just came from? This is the second time I have been to Colorado and each time I keep finding more things to fall in love.
Everywhere you turned was just one more adventure to discover. The Possibilities were endless.
Colorado, aside from being absolutely breathtaking, is one of the cleanest and friendliest places I have ever traveled. There was a real feeling of comfort and home that filled the air. Colorado is one of those places that there is something amazing to see everywhere you turn. I felt completely at ease and super peaceful. The mountains were very humbling and made one appreciate the present moment.
From mountains to desert like landscapes every scene was a postcard, I took so many pictures.
I can totally see why so many people flock to live there every year. My boyfriend and I sure hope that can be us one day. I have always dreamed of living in a mountain type area. Riding horses through the trees. For four days I was able to live this dream, well not the horse part, but being in Colorado. I have hundreds of pictures of the rockies and skies alone! I was snapping away.
Day 1: Thursday
As our alarm went off Thursday morning, I awoke with such excitement and joy for the trip. Nothing was going to stop that, except maybe the flight over. I'm not much of a flyer. I have a very bitter sweet love/hate relationship with airplanes. I'm not one for turbulence or small enclosed spaces, but I pushed myself forward.
Every journey has its hurdles to climb in order to get to the reward. Airports, people, oh my!
We arrived at our gate with plenty of time to spare. I finally got to get my morning coffee and some food. I planned the day to arrive into Denver with time to get the rental and check in for a group tour we scheduled. (Party bus for the wedding group!) So you can imagine my dramatic drama when the airlines announced a delay in those plans.
Our flight was delayed because someone didn't show up for work.
I can not make this up. We actually had to delay our flight an hour because one of the flight attendants did a no call, no show on their shift. So we had to wait until they found someone to replace them. This already made the passengers a bit perturbed. Then we get the awesome surprise of open seating.
For someone battling flight anxiety, separating her from her boyfriend was not awesome.
As we started to board the plane we quickly realized the situation that was unfolding. I tried to stay as positive as possible but unfortunately my anxiety had other plans. I started to feel the attack circling in my stomach. I was taken back by the fact that no one would move to allow us to sit next to each other. So as I took my seat in the back of the plane I just tried to meditate the entire trip out.
Sometimes we just have to ignore the negative to make room for the positive.
The craziness didn't stop there, once we landed we faced yet another obstacle. Our rental car was 30min in the opposite direction of where we needed to be. We arrived at the rental place only to find our car had a recall on it. We had to wait an extra 45min to get approval to drive the car out.
I was crushed, but very soon after that everything turned around.
We finally got the car and headed towards the city. Luckily, the people at the tour company were so helpful. Not only did the organizer have the party bus leave 20min later, they also allowed us to meet them where they were. When we finally caught up with our friends hugs went round and catching up took over the bad parts of the day. Lesson learned for sure...always plan for the unexpected..
Every journey has its trials don't they? But what started out rough surely didn't last long.
Recently I joined up with Radical Self Love Coven, a wonderful group of Witchy babes from all over the world. The coven is lead by none other than one of my top fave bloggers, Gala Darling. I decided to sign up for this program not only to upgrade my magic making skills but to ignite my magical, self loving flame.
The first month has been a wonderful experience with assignments I can't wait to begin. I am learning so much about my self and my internal powers of manifestation. I have also met some pretty awesome women from all over the world.
One of the projects that came with the program was to post to Instagram on certain topics. Unfortunately I missed the actually challenge because it started at the beginning of the year. So I decided to try it out on my own. I failed miserably, I kept forgetting to post, and half the time it felt as if I was half assing it anyway. Not having others to join along in the challenge made things seem dry. But I didn't want to completely give up, I love pictures and letting others see a glimpse into my life is a great way to make connections.
So I decided to make a blog of it. In the gallery below are some of the pictures of the Radical Self Love challenge. I highly recommend you try this for yourself. Getting to see the things that make a difference in your life really opens one's eyes.
Here I am, in all my glory. I have not worn a bikini in almost 3years. I was not very happy with my body or myself. I let more than just my weight go, I let my spirit go.
I let everything I believed in just drift away.
But all that changed with one simple thing, believing in myself again. At the beginning of 2016 I was depressed, lacking, and searching for anything and everything that could make me feel different.
Replacing feelings with food, confidence with defense, and a good front of happiness.
It was a shit show. I was struggling ad grasping at any rope I could find. My relationships were hanging on by a thread and I felt envious of all the amazing things happening to my friends.
I felt horrible and selfish, sprinkled with a dash of bitterness.
Then all that changed. Around the start of Spring I decided it was time to go back to the basics. I started to review my course work from The Institute for Integrative Nutrition, and re read some of my favorite motivational books.
I began to realize that power comes from within, I was looking for "stuff" to fill the emptiness inside.
Getting back to the basics was a sure fire way to notice how very far off track I let my self get. It's funny I wasn't walking my talk or talking my walk. hehe I was just sliding by waiting for my life to start.
I forgot my life was already in motion. I was not living in the present at all.
I started to live more positively, healthy and decided that I needed to be my VIP coaching client. I wrote out the things I wanted to accomplish, change, and created an action plan to achieve my goals.
I flipped the script of my life in 6months!
That's all it took. I started focusing on the things that made me happy, feel happy and look happy. I began working out more, practicing yoga, got a make over and so much more.
Back to the bikini story. I was never really comfortable with my body. Years of being bullied, bad boyfriends telling me I was fat (in a negative way), and even my own inner critic. I would sit and cry for hours because of my thoughts.
I kept telling myself for years that being skinny meant happiness.
Even when I was thinner, I still believed I was unattractive, unwanted, and unworthy. Then it all came to a head with one day. Last month I got a very short haircut. I mean the dude pulled out the buzz clippers and I said, "let's do this". It was amazing.
With that one small change, my entire outlook changed.
It's hard to believe but I literally watched my confidence grow as the hair was falling to the floor. The second I walked out the salon, well actually, the second the chair spun around and I looked in the mirror; I knew I had to rock this look.
I knew that this haircut demanded confidence and I totally rock it!
Getting my hair chopped was such an amazing feeling. I have never had my hair this short and man does it feel amazing. It was like night and day. I began to see myself in a new light.
I began to reflect how I feel inside and out.
With the new hair cut, I started to update my wardrobe and makeup. Only keeping the things that made me feel proud, confident, and full of joy. I began new eating habits, working out, and started to take my self seriously.
I saw my body as a vessel and not as a burden.
With all the hype about body positivity, loving how we are and enjoying the skin we're in, it still can be a struggle. Loving your body is a process and takes time.
I went from a 1 piece, suck it in type of bathing suite, to a bikini that showed it all.
I still catch myself checking my stomach, or trying to hide a roll if it shows. But that just means I have to keep going. Since the beginning of the year and my decision to transform, I have lost 11lbs, a pants size, and increased my confidence ten fold.
With my confidence increased, I was attracting attention, clients, and better relationships.
I am so proud of how far I have come and I hope to inspire others to take notice of themselves. We are all beautiful. We all have amazing bodies and beautiful souls. Don't let the judgement or opinions of others drag you down.
Happy International BFF Day
Today is international BFF Day1 Wherever your friends are make sure you give them the high five they deserve.
If you're anything like me, your friends are your tribe, your urban family. Today is that day to honor those closest to you.
Write your friends a text, snap chat, or instagram and let them know how much they mean in your life. I promise they'll appreciate it more than you know.
In other news!
Bexster's blog is officially 2 years old today! I can't believe it. I am so happy and proud that I have come this far. So much has happened in the past two years.
Thanks so much for being a part of my wild journey. Here's to many more years of fun, laughs, tears, learning, and sheer goofiness.
"Everyone dreams of living in Paris." ~Natalie Portman
Ever since I was young, I have always had an admiration and desire for Paris. The food, fashion, culture, history, I enjoy learning about it all. Paris is like a dream to me, a far away place filled with mystique and romance. Throughout history Paris was where writers went to dream and artists went to live. It has a charm and design all its own.
"Paris is always a good idea." ~Audrey Hepburn
When I was in college I was lucky enough to travel through Europe. It was the first time I had ever backpacked anywhere and I loved it. I was also fortunate enough to spend a few days in the city I have always dreamed of going, Paris. It was exactly how I imagined it would be. The sights, sounds and atmosphere was something straight out of my dreams.
Even though it was only a couple of days, Paris has stuck with me ever since.
I believe the reason I adore Parisian culture so much is because of the romance that fills the air. It truly is the city of love and lights. You fall in love with everything, from the street signs to the flowers, to the bakery around the corner. One of the best things to do when your'e exploring Paris, is just to walk around and take in the sights. Don't worry so much about seeing the tower or Louvre, you'll get there. But walk around and really get to know what the city has to offer.
Happy chances happen in Paris.
One of my favorite movies, Amelie, is centered around a young girl in Montmartre. In one of the scenes she encourages her love interest to go on a chase throughout the city. When I visited the area where this scene was filmed I decided to walk the same steps as in the film. I was epically surprised to see that some of the stuff was still hanging around. As I followed the "signs" and ended in the same place as these characters did. The end of the trail over look the entire city, it was a postcard come to life.
If you follow me on Pinterest or Instagram, you know I am always finding new trinkets and places that resemble some aspect of Paris. I am down right in love with this French bakery and cafe down the street from my house, get this its called Amelie's. How perfect is that? I am always there and taking pictures of their delicious treats.
Paris is more than a place, it's a dream, a vision, a lifestyle.
I am currently reading four books; The Parisian Diet, Parisian Chic, PARIS, & a Macaron cookbook. Told ya, obsessed. My plan of attack is this, surround myself as if I am living my goals, I will manifest them into my present. So if I surround my self in Paris, I will manifest a trip into my life soon. Sounds pretty legit to me.
Paris, is my dream, what's yours?
Where do you dream of going and being a part of? Do you have a particular city which draws you in naturally? I'd love to know. Tell me your dream city in the comments below and why you absolute love that place and what you do to surround yourself in it.
Cafe Au Lait
My new Pizza float
Cuddling with the boy before work
Laughing with friends over snap chat
Urban Slumber parties
Hot pink everything
Planning Empowerment events
My Alice Through the Looking Glass, special edition Urban Decay kit
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