How was your June? Miss me? With all the blogs, articles and social media posts I'm happy to be back in your sights again. While I truly wanted to write more the past month the inspiration was lacking. Not that I didn't have anything to share, just knew it wasn't the right time. Most of the things I was going through would have made me incredibly depressing to read.
The start art of the summer was less than one would have been excited for. It was a big month of growth and learning. I was struggling hard with my anxiety and fighting a spiral that was trying to drag me to the bottom of my sheets. I was mean, sort, sensitive and uncontrollable anger for the world around me. It was a place I dislike going because it is the side of me I find hardest to love.
Moving! Omg how could I forget one of the biggest reasons for my stress...moving across country. As much as I would like to pretend I'm not freaking out, I'm suddenly aware of the ball of nerves curled up in my stomach. While I'll admit the excitement of this epic adventure is still there, the reality of getting out there is a daunting task on my plate. Leaving everything I know to experience everything I have yet to explore. It's a wild thought. Finding a place, getting stuff out there, saying goodbye for who knows how long. It's wild.
There were very few bloggers showing the darker side of their souls, social media is full of fake reality and false positivity. False positivity is when you only talk about how wonderful things are going but are lying about your reality. It's not being honest with yourself or others. False positivity is when we fall apart but tell others how easy it is to fix "our" lives. Because we want the world to believe that we have the happiest, most movie-esque life. I get it, it's hard to take a step back and realize you're needing a moment. We have perceived trying to be weakness and perfection to be the norm. It's very disorienting.
It's okay to have bad days, or weeks. It's okay to fall apart and pick yourself up. Multiple times in your life. No one really has their shit together, as much as they like to portray it that way. We don't have to be strong all the time. Go easy on yourself and be patient. Remember that what we see online is only a glimpse into someone's actual life and what they are going through. Be honest with yourself and your loved ones.
You have come so far in life, making it day by day and trying each and every morning. It's okay to take time to build your life. It is always okay to start over several times. It is never to late to start your dreams or get back into the saddle. Don't let the world of social media make you feel as if you're less of a person.