Do you ever wonder what's out there? Look at the stars and wish for change you can feel? That's how I feel each winter, and this winter it is hitting especially hard. As I look out onto my snow filled courtyard in my apartment complex I suddenly realize all that it took to get here. I don't mean just monetary or man power, but the actually transformational process.
In the past few months since moving to Denver I have had many people express their envy of my bravery. Bravery for moving? Was I that naive to think that everyone could do the same? Never the less I was faced with this unexpected urge to understand why and why I was avoiding the admittance of it all. It was my choice to move but I never saw myself as brave. I would have never thought that one small act of resort could change my whole perspective on myself.
You see I have always been a runner, a nomadic personality and a complete wanderer. I am a free spirit who can not be contained. For years I had been putting myself down for these qualities and it wasn't until I was here that I truly started to see the good in all of this. Free spirits make up 9% of the population (I just learned this yesterday), and we are the magical beings that inspire others to live. We are the healers, dreamers, muses and the lovers. I came out here and was cut off from everything I knew by almost 2,000 miles. In a wondrous new environment and absolutely no knowledge of what to expect. So yes I guess I could see myself as brave.
I was always an impulsive child/person. I always did what I wanted and even if times I would have repercussions, it all happened for a reason. We don't go through these experiences to fail backwards, we go through them to grow forwards. A lot of us feel stuck, lost and a lot of times alone. But if we just look a little closer we are actually just going through one of our many transitions.
Have faith and keep strong
We often will go through the same things over and over till we finally learn what it is needed to move on. Think about all the times you've blurted out the "why me" statement. I sometimes do this a few times a month. But once the emotional aspect of the situation dies down try to see what it is as to why you had to go through it. Did you learn something new? Did you open an opportunity that wouldn't have shown itself otherwise? We often forget that life is about learning, no matter what our age. So when we feel stuck it usually stems from comparing our lives to others. We compare ourselves to friends, family and even strangers. We forget that we ourselves are amazing creatures who've overcome everything up till this point. It doesn't matter what someone else thinks about our journey, what matters is that we ourselves see our journey.
Think back to 5-10 years ago, where were you? What was going on in your life at those times? What incredibly life changing situation were you going through that you thought you wouldn't make it out alive? And now look at where you are. Look how far you've come from that point to know. You're stronger more wise than you were and now the universe can hand you the bigger challenges. So when people tell you to stay strong and keep the faith, it isn't such a detrimental concept. They are reminding you that you have ben strong all along and to stay as strong as ever. Because everything you go through you've overcome.
Don't forget to live
Think back to all the things you've wanted to do over the years. How many of those things have you actually gone and done. And how many of those things did you give excuses for? I challenge you to start doing these things. I challenge you to open your world to possibilities and opportunities. Because if we aren't living then what are we doing? Are we just going about our days, wishing for a better life?
I am currently reading, 'Women who run with the wolves', an amazing book about returning to our wild nature. Our flame and aggression, our desire to run free and to live. That part deep within us that we often suppress. If we want adventure we are driven to explore that part of us. Not subdue it until its so confused and self-conscious that the flame is barely a cinder. So live, go experience something that brings that flame back to your spirit. Find time to enjoy things that bring a smile to your face and a light in your heart. Don't wait for the moment to be right, because that will never happen. What you're looking for is out there but are you brave enough to find it, and when you do how will you feel.